I understand this. But trust me you should try to love yourself without alcohol too. I did it and made it good for myself.

of course it's not the "only" option. I blocked my "crappy life" with Scotch for a couple decades and when I stopped...that crappy life was sitting right there waiting for me and it was even crappier because I lost 20 years and still had to deal with it.

I prefer smoking weed.

I will start soon.

1) go to a friend and hug the friend

2) kidnap the friend

3) have vacation with the friend

4) look if the friend is still your friend

5) if yes then you can be happy about that