The psychic and author Sylvia Browne said that if someone commits suicide they will not go to heaven or the other side, they will be recycled back into life to try it out again. But if you are one of those people that do not believe in the other side or God or anything of the such, you will be in for a surprise that we do go somewhere. Don't do it. I am almost 45 now and ever since I was like 12 I have struggled with depression and have had suicidal thoughts but I have never actually wanted to act on them, it's just a state of mind you get in that life is a drag. Just sleep on it. Just wait for life to get better. It doesn't completely get better because life sucks for EVERYONE, rich, poor, black, white, man, or woman. Your time will come on it's own and then you will finally feel relief. But please leave that up to the powers that be, not yourself