Yes I think some people's journey is ment to be done in solitude. Mine has been, it's never changed, I've never got out, I've always been alone. The only thing to do is eventually accept it, luckily it gets easier after 30 and apparently continues to get easier or some have said but even the acceptance of it doesnt mean you've cracked it and you can now be free...because some people's entire journey was ment to be done alone