I'd like to say that I understand what you're feeling, but in reality I cannot. All I can really say is that I wish and hope that you could get out of this mess. That you could find someone that could look past everything, who would see what really matters, who would be there when you need it most. Loneliness is... well, it's a slow killer. The mind deteriorates, emotions dissipate into nothingness, hopes and dreams slowly wither. And yet it will all be worth it in the end, once we do happen upon the one who complete us, and we in turn complete them. It will happen, what we need to do is wait.
And that's the toughest part...
I wish you the strength to carry on and truly do hope that everything will get better soon. Best of luck to you!
P.S. If you would like to vent or simply talk, I'd be glad to listen. Talking truly helps, even if for a little bit.

if you need a friend to talk to i am here i have been through a lot my self

Hey!

you will be fine soon.. ignore people who isolate you