When my own father said "I wanted a boy!" when he was nearby in a drunken state. He was talking to himself in the kitchen thinking I was asleep. Mom has told me he always wanted a girl and when he said that it was very hurtful.

I was overweight when I was younger. Girls used to throw stuff in my hair. Called me it and fat. I never looked in the mirror at the time. Didnt understand that my appearace was so scraggly at the time. Never had friends. Sat alone at lunch for years. All that changed when I saw myself for the first time. After that everyone tried to be nice to me after that. Fuck all of you. You picked on me my whole school years of childhood. These were people I knew growing up since kindergarten since the community was small everyone went to the same school since they were right next to each other.

I can't actually remember. Which can only be a good thing.

You should have died instead.

I dont remember. I try to let those things go. Sometimes they come back to me at inopportune times. There have been things though that have hurt me bably.

That I won't never marriage in my life. It wasn't the statement itself, but the way how he put it.

the list is endless