I Need You Love and Mercy My Dearest God

You promised me that my destiny was already mapped out and that I was going to heaven, was I going alone or not.....I heard angels sing.....So hanging on to someone can either lead to the abyss if the person you intend to lean on is ellusive and pulls the rug out from beneath you...Or you can suffer loss, or can lead to a heavenly cross filled with embarrassment and oppression and near death and loss...Or they can stay forever or hopefully so like marriage which can sometimes end in divorce....People are fickle, but you Lord promised to never leave me nor foresake me even when I have been unfaithful to you....Lord you are my rock, my solid ground in You I find my security and confidence, you let me taste heaven for loving You, in the midst of serious pain, though its fading....I must confess I still don't feel secure that I'll spend eternity in heaven because I still have demons and fear that they will attempt to drag me down to hell when I die, or what if I suffer too much and turn my back on you in the end? I pray that thats never the case. But As of right now I do have a heavenly hope, all because You let me hear the heavenly choirs sing.