Anybody else suffer from depression?

I just need to break down
Really break down.
The kind where you ugly cry into someone's arms. The kind where you fall to the floor trying to catch your breath but you can't because your heart is beating too fast.
But every time I feel like my head is going to explode, I don't break down. I take a deep breath and I tell myself to suck it up because there are people dying out there in this dark abyss we call home. I tell myself that I don't deserve to feel the way I do. Because i'm one of the lucky ones. I've had a pretty good life. But I still have my own demons that I fight every second of the day.
I force a smile and hold back the tears because I know i'm better than this. But I feel like i'm a ticking time bomb ready to combust into flames. I just feel like my heart is hanging by a thread like my oxygen is running out. I just feel this weight over my shoulders that just keeps weighing me down. Yet I can't form whats wrong into words. Because I don't know, I feel like I'm insane. Like my mind is attacking itself.
I just need someone to listen to my tears and be there.
Someone who gets my crazy messed up thoughts. Someone who can just say it's okay, just let it out, i'm right here. Your not alone and your not crazy. You are just human. 💔

AmbivalentFriability · 26-30

Yes. I've been there.

The suffering of others who you think are in a worse situation than you, does not discount your own. Yours is still just as real. If it wasn't real it would not be hurting you. We don't get to decide what hurts us and how much, we can only try to respond to it and deal with it to the best of our ability.

Please keep reminding yourself, that while outside factors can influence our depression, depression is still an [i]illness[/i]. Illnesses do not discriminate between rich or poor, broken families or whole, "successful" or not. You can have the most wonderful life, and still get cancer. Illnesses are not a choice. No one would choose to continue to be depressed if that were the case. Things can be done to help you be healthier, yes, but there's no simple off switch. Please don't feel like you aren't allowed to be sick, or that you have not earned the right to feel negative emotion.
It is a huge task to heal from depression and go into remission even if you have absolutely everything you need to get better. So don't beat yourself up for feeling bad. It's okay to feel like shit. It doesn't make you a failure. It makes you human. Not every day of recovery is going to feel like you're doing much recovering.

It's okay to let yourself feel emotions freely. No matter how angry, miserable, or bitter or whatever they might be, no matter who they're directed at. Feeling emotions and accepting their existence won't send you sliding backward further into depression.

There is no reason, not one, why you don't deserve the same love you feel for your friends or family. You are just as worthy of your love as they are. ♥️

Byeimoff

Your emotions don't care about other people's situations. They are only affected by what u experience in your life so if you're under constant stress, it doesn't matter if it's because you're homeless living on the street or if someone is constantly sending U nasty texts, over time it has the same effect on your mind and emotions... so yeah, you have every right to feel the way you do regardless of who has it worse off. You can hurt just as bad. Best advice, just submit to it and be a depressed person for a bit without constantly trying to fight it. It clears your mind a lot when you stop focusing on battling it and just let it happen 🤗🤗

htoad34 · 36-40, M

There are times I need to have a good cry, as much as I hate to admit it. I usually watch a sad movie to get the tears flowing. If you feel like you want or need to cry just let it out don't hold it back.