Is anyone hurting badly out there right now?
I've never been so stressed and felt locked down on someone else's schedule. I live with my parents after coming home from school and I'm the youngest (22).
My sister has a 5 month old and my family always guilt trips me to babysit when I already had plans for the day. So I have to cancel my interviews or a day out with friends to do something I don't want to.
They'll guilt trip me when I want to go out of town or have to go out of town for school. They say things like I don't want to spend time with family or stuff stupid words in my mouth.
They guilt trip me when they know my decisions on kids; I don't want children of my own, but they always say I'm going to change my mind, just because I'm great with caring for my nieces and nephews. That doesn't mean I want my own.
They guilt trip me when I'm stay at my friends house because it's quiet there and I can actually be by myself without being forced to do anything.
They guilt trip me if I'm late for a car payment, saying that I don't want to progress myself. Why would I intentionally make myself late on paying a bill...?
Someone make it stop. I'm so depressed. I speak out and no one hears me. Probably because I'm the youngest, they don't want to take me seriously. My family means everything to me and I feel sad when I'm out of town and not home; then I quickly regret ever coming home.
The reason why I don't like spending time with them is because I know what there conversations and jokes will be about. And they just laugh about it, no one has ever taken me seriously except when I've self harmed. I want to live with my parents because it's cheaper for me while I'm an unpaid intern for school, and I don't want to miss another family event because they've made me feel bad about that too. Just please help me make it stop. I've been hurting so bad lately, and I know it'll get worse.
[c=#004A59] If anyone wants to share any stressful experiences through the comments that'll make me feel better. So I know I'm not alone. [/c]
My sister has a 5 month old and my family always guilt trips me to babysit when I already had plans for the day. So I have to cancel my interviews or a day out with friends to do something I don't want to.
They'll guilt trip me when I want to go out of town or have to go out of town for school. They say things like I don't want to spend time with family or stuff stupid words in my mouth.
They guilt trip me when they know my decisions on kids; I don't want children of my own, but they always say I'm going to change my mind, just because I'm great with caring for my nieces and nephews. That doesn't mean I want my own.
They guilt trip me when I'm stay at my friends house because it's quiet there and I can actually be by myself without being forced to do anything.
They guilt trip me if I'm late for a car payment, saying that I don't want to progress myself. Why would I intentionally make myself late on paying a bill...?
Someone make it stop. I'm so depressed. I speak out and no one hears me. Probably because I'm the youngest, they don't want to take me seriously. My family means everything to me and I feel sad when I'm out of town and not home; then I quickly regret ever coming home.
The reason why I don't like spending time with them is because I know what there conversations and jokes will be about. And they just laugh about it, no one has ever taken me seriously except when I've self harmed. I want to live with my parents because it's cheaper for me while I'm an unpaid intern for school, and I don't want to miss another family event because they've made me feel bad about that too. Just please help me make it stop. I've been hurting so bad lately, and I know it'll get worse.
[c=#004A59] If anyone wants to share any stressful experiences through the comments that'll make me feel better. So I know I'm not alone. [/c]
