It's so odd what sorts of happenstance cause me to dwell on all the unresolved thoughts of you. I go from sad, to mad, to extremely angry, and then all the way back down to despondency. It's there I spend most of my time everyday. At least until life interrupts my thoughts and forces me to live this half life I feel that I'm stuck in all the time.
I miss you everyday, Joe. Always more than the day before. All my wishes are wasted and gone. Just biding time now, these days. Life is so much less without you.
Sorry just doesn't cover it. Nothing does. The tears don't seem to provide much hope. The anger provides no motivation. The wondering and worrying is all that's left. Some day I'll die and maybe we can take a walk down by the river one more time. Play one last game together. Coach together. Maybe just another hug.....
I miss you kid. I really do. It still feels all wrong. Life hurts without you.
