I Am Gay, And I Want To Find Love

I feel like I really do want to find the right girl to hold and take care of and share my life with. I have fantasies about finding someone to make laugh and hold hands with. I wish i wasnt so shy not many people know im gay and i dont put myself out there most of my relationships have been online. So a few lol but we all decided to be friends i wonder what its like to have a soul mate im such a hopeless romantic XD