I Come From a Broken Family
I can live with the fact that my family are broken (physically in the sense of being divided up and re-marrying other people.) this is not a big deal in this day an age.
In fact I think 1 out of every 2families today; are blended from another (as in step kids/step parents/etc.)
No what has always been a deep well of pain in my heart my whole life. Is that in addition to us being a broken family, we are emotionally divided, we are not even in agreement as to if we like each other or not 😪
It is mainly becoz my entire clan (mainly my siblings though) are all so passionately opinionated, and never give a dam how they phrase things, who they hurt with their words, if they've damaged one another's confidence within them selves.
no my siblings, don't seem to take anything like that into consideration (they just shoot their mouths off and hope for the best.)
And the eldest is around 50, and the next one is 44, then 39, then me at 35. So it's not really like they are teens, or young people, or anyone that shouldn't know how damaging words can be.
Why is it that me as the youngest have spent my whole life watching what I say and how I say it, and empathising with people.
When I come from siblings who have never cared about such things.
They spent my youth emotionally tearing me to pieces.
This Christmas when I went back to my home town, I nearly had an anxiety attack going there (as I nearly always do driving down to see them.)
There my flesh and blood, so ultimately I will always love them dearly, but I can honestly say if I were to choose to never socialise with any of them again (just kp our whole relationship on the phones and like Facebook etc.) Then I could easily live with that.
Their judgemental, arrogant, hypocritical individuals and I think I probably am better off when I'm allowed to love them from a distance 😓
In fact I think 1 out of every 2families today; are blended from another (as in step kids/step parents/etc.)
No what has always been a deep well of pain in my heart my whole life. Is that in addition to us being a broken family, we are emotionally divided, we are not even in agreement as to if we like each other or not 😪
It is mainly becoz my entire clan (mainly my siblings though) are all so passionately opinionated, and never give a dam how they phrase things, who they hurt with their words, if they've damaged one another's confidence within them selves.
no my siblings, don't seem to take anything like that into consideration (they just shoot their mouths off and hope for the best.)
And the eldest is around 50, and the next one is 44, then 39, then me at 35. So it's not really like they are teens, or young people, or anyone that shouldn't know how damaging words can be.
Why is it that me as the youngest have spent my whole life watching what I say and how I say it, and empathising with people.
When I come from siblings who have never cared about such things.
They spent my youth emotionally tearing me to pieces.
This Christmas when I went back to my home town, I nearly had an anxiety attack going there (as I nearly always do driving down to see them.)
There my flesh and blood, so ultimately I will always love them dearly, but I can honestly say if I were to choose to never socialise with any of them again (just kp our whole relationship on the phones and like Facebook etc.) Then I could easily live with that.
Their judgemental, arrogant, hypocritical individuals and I think I probably am better off when I'm allowed to love them from a distance 😓
41-45, F
