I Accept Responsibility For My Own Actions

I am in such a low place right now. It sucks when I fall down here, life becomes dark, gloomy and frightening often. But it's okay because I've been in this hole before and I already have a better idea of what it's like and how I can get out because I've done it before. I fell down here because I let fear push me down. This fear never seems to go away unless I confront it. This constant fear that I've had for a while is known as some kind of mix between social anxiety and agoraphobia. This fear really sucks because it's quite stubborn. I feel so afraid all the time. And for the past week I've been stuck in the hole that it pushed me into. I can't take it anymore, I'm gonna get back up right now because this isn't living. I've been too scared to even try getting back up this past week but I know nothing is gonna change unless I let go of the past and just get up again. I'm being absurd about this fear,.....it's only as strong as I allow it to be. And on top of that my body is aching for sunlight and exercise (like really bad). I'm human....I shouldn't be living like this...it's unhealthy and extremely boring. F*** this fear....it's not worth the cost....next time it tries to push me down here I'm just gonna laugh in it's face because social anxiety and agoraphobia is silly.

Lovli12 · 26-30, F

It's silly but it's also a real thing. U know it's real and that it doesn't have to control u. U have that part down. If I were u, I would take it slow like taking a walk in a secluded neighborhood or park at odd times where few people are then when you're ready, branch out a little like go to a gas station or what have u. Good luck, it's easier than u think.