I Wtk Your Song Of The Day And Why
"What Does It Take?" By Honeymoon Suite (And "Nevermore" By The Raven)... I first heard that song back in 1986. I heard it for the first time in a long time a couple years ago. Seems to be the theme song of this whole break-up. Lately I've had trouble identifying my feelings. Ever since I saw the ex with (one of?) her new boyfriend(s?), I have felt this disgusting dark feeling of impending doom right in the middle of my chest. A couple hours before meeting him my youngest told me she had a boyfriend in her room with the door closed and heard "sounds like they were kissing" and the "unh unh" sound. I feel a little better after I reprimanded the ex about that. Sometimes all I can feel is this feeling of wasted years. Married for 9 years. Known her for 10 years. that's about 25% of my entire life. Part of me wishes I never met her. But then again, part of me is glad I met her. She gave me two beautiful children. And we did have some good times. But the bad things and the way she used me increased exponentially and that was it. Now that I've been away for almost 4 months, I've had time to get my thoughts back together and had time to think about how I miss something. I miss that little spark of hope I used to have, that one day things would get better, that she would start treating me better, and that we would somehow grow old together. Now that said hope is gone, all I can think about is the hope I had.
It was like a recurring dream I had growing up where we all went to Disney World. In the dream I would be at Disney World and I would be so happy. Last time I had the dream I was in USAF Basic Military Training at Lackland AFB, Tx. I was marching up Main St in a parade. I was holding hands with this girl I used to like and a marching band was playing behind us as people looked on and cheered. And then I noticed some things started changing. Perhaps the street looked like the troop marching lanes that criss-crossed the training facility. I noticed she was gone and the crowd disappeared and Cinderella's Castle was Building 9085, home of the 325th Basic Military Training Squadron. I heard one last blast from a horn, which turned out to be the bugle blasting Revelle over the intercom. That's how it's been. Nothing but a dream. I had a dream that my ex and I would find a way to bury the hatchet and have a wonderful life, and we would get through this. Gradually that dream started to morph into an alternative reality. I start to look around and notice more things going bad. And suddenly I realize the dream is no longer there. It was gone with the blast of a rude awakening.
Damn it, I worked so hard to keep things on an even keel. The harder I worked, the harder she seemingly rebelled. And it left me with nothing. Now that I am alone, I can mourn the end of a happy dream. I can grieve over what, albeit seemed to be mine, never was. I can now open up my chamber door and invite in The Raven to regale me with his somber song, "Nevermore."
"What Does It Take?" by Honeymoon Suite
The two of us are one of a kind A combination ain't easy to find
Why do I get a feeling from you Things ain't right, do you need something new?
Knowing how both of us live Leaves us so little to give
If I could grow wings I would do anything
Just to keep you with me Can't you see?
If I could fly high I would give you the sky
Don't you make that mistake What does it take?
It's not like I've been mean to you It's not like I've got something better to do
The life I live you'll never understand If you fly with me we'd never have to land
It's easy to live hard and fast But inside we know it won't last
Oh yeah,
if I could grow wings I would do anything
Just to keep you with me Can't you see?
If I could fly high I would give you the sky
Don't you make that mistake It's love that I need What does it take?
Knowing how both of us live Leaves us so little to give
Yeah, if I could grow wings I would do anything
Just to keep you with me Can't you see?
If I could fly high I would give you the sky
Don't you make that mistake What does it take?
If I could grow wings I would do anything
Just to keep you with me Can't you see?
If I could fly high I would give you the sky
Don't you make that mistake What does it take?
What does it take? What does it take?
What does it take? What does it take?
It was like a recurring dream I had growing up where we all went to Disney World. In the dream I would be at Disney World and I would be so happy. Last time I had the dream I was in USAF Basic Military Training at Lackland AFB, Tx. I was marching up Main St in a parade. I was holding hands with this girl I used to like and a marching band was playing behind us as people looked on and cheered. And then I noticed some things started changing. Perhaps the street looked like the troop marching lanes that criss-crossed the training facility. I noticed she was gone and the crowd disappeared and Cinderella's Castle was Building 9085, home of the 325th Basic Military Training Squadron. I heard one last blast from a horn, which turned out to be the bugle blasting Revelle over the intercom. That's how it's been. Nothing but a dream. I had a dream that my ex and I would find a way to bury the hatchet and have a wonderful life, and we would get through this. Gradually that dream started to morph into an alternative reality. I start to look around and notice more things going bad. And suddenly I realize the dream is no longer there. It was gone with the blast of a rude awakening.
Damn it, I worked so hard to keep things on an even keel. The harder I worked, the harder she seemingly rebelled. And it left me with nothing. Now that I am alone, I can mourn the end of a happy dream. I can grieve over what, albeit seemed to be mine, never was. I can now open up my chamber door and invite in The Raven to regale me with his somber song, "Nevermore."
"What Does It Take?" by Honeymoon Suite
The two of us are one of a kind A combination ain't easy to find
Why do I get a feeling from you Things ain't right, do you need something new?
Knowing how both of us live Leaves us so little to give
If I could grow wings I would do anything
Just to keep you with me Can't you see?
If I could fly high I would give you the sky
Don't you make that mistake What does it take?
It's not like I've been mean to you It's not like I've got something better to do
The life I live you'll never understand If you fly with me we'd never have to land
It's easy to live hard and fast But inside we know it won't last
Oh yeah,
if I could grow wings I would do anything
Just to keep you with me Can't you see?
If I could fly high I would give you the sky
Don't you make that mistake It's love that I need What does it take?
Knowing how both of us live Leaves us so little to give
Yeah, if I could grow wings I would do anything
Just to keep you with me Can't you see?
If I could fly high I would give you the sky
Don't you make that mistake What does it take?
If I could grow wings I would do anything
Just to keep you with me Can't you see?
If I could fly high I would give you the sky
Don't you make that mistake What does it take?
What does it take? What does it take?
What does it take? What does it take?
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