I Am a Lesbian
I'm a great friend but terrible girlfriend. I'm a better friend than I am a lover. I'm a great friend but a cruel,cruel lover so sometimes I make this mistake of thinking I can change myself for someone. The last girl I was with well I was great to her,at first. I was there for her,I listened to her,was ALWAYS considerate of her needs and feelings and I even tolerated her cheating,once. But then it happened,I got bored. I lost interest and then I went ghost. Changed my number,my social media accounts,everything that would make me unreachable in 2016. Part of me did it for revenge,part of me did it because I needed space but a more sadistic part of me knows that leaving this way,denying her any closure makes it hard for her to forget me,to move on. Lastly leaving someone with no answers means you can always come back,paint yourself as the victim and then win them back.Maybe after some time I'll be ready to be in a relationship, it probably won't be with her though. Oh god who am I kidding,it will probably just be a life of friendships and meaningless sex for me. It's better that way,I can only hurt those people whom I attempt to love.I'll make things right with her one day,I just need more time.
