I Am On My Own Spiritual Path
Long story. (Heart vs Soul)
Most people think that the heart and soul are along the lines of the same thing. Native Americans thought the soul of a creature was in it's heart! It is logical to think that the soul would get along with the heart. We hear about the "Battle of Heart and Mind." as well as the old saying "The Soul can calm the Mind at time." If the heart stood for everything you feel, while the soul stands for everything you believe in, and the mind is everything that is logical. Then one would think what you feel and what you believe in would run together. Even I use to think that the heart and soul were to things that went well together. That was until today.
Last night I had a dream. I was with my father out in the freshly cut corn fields to help him with something. As we were walking to the site where he wanted my help to lay out corn, I stepped on something that shined bright in the sun's rays. I lifted my foot to see that it was my rosemary. I was confused but I just put it in my pocket. But then I felt something in my pocket too. I took it out to see that it was one of my tarot cards. The Two of Swords. Quickly I hid it from my father's sight thinking on why I had it when he started to talk to me. He asked me, "Are you ever going to decide on if you are going to take that job at the store? There is still time if you want to work with your family?" Yes, I am in the classic situation where right now in life I have to choose a job of working with my family or going off on my own with store job. Anyway, back to the dream.
Before I could reply to him a bull come running down the path along the side of the field! It is big and it horns that glowed in the suns rays, where even scarier. It was huge, strong, brown-ish red bull just coming full charge down this corn path. Me and my father just got low to the ground, hoping this mad looking bull would not see us and just run on by. When we got down low, the bull stopped. It started to walk in circles like it was searching for something. It's head was held high, it's ears where going wild, it's chest was stuck out, and the spike like hooves that tore up the ground where ready to run again.
The massive bull started up again as my eyes lock on to it, praying it would not charge me or my father. My father slaps me on the chest with his hand suddenly and says, "Look! Over there!" Past the giant like beast I see a flash of pure white and the pounding of hooves. It was a beautiful white horse charging forward and that is when I realized. This is no mad bull, it is a scared one! As the horse came closer and closer the bull thrashed about madly as if to stay, "BACK OFF!". The pure white horse did not listen. Soon within seconds the horse was on it's hind legs kicking at the bull and the bull was thrashing it's massive spiked horns at the horse.
The horse, still throwing it's powerful legs around, back off enough so the bull could get away. However it soon was trapped by a mental fence that went around the corn field. It was boxed in with me and my father right in it's way! Making a mad dash me and my father just run for it to jump over the fence before the bull gets us. The bull and the horse where too busy to notice us thankfully but as I turned back to see what was happening. I noticed that the horse wasn't so scary anymore. The white strong horse was standing there watching the bull. The horse wasn't attacking, it was following the bull. The bull though was so scared of this horse that it crashed into the mental fence with a loud thunder like crash! That is when I woke up.
The dream was vivid and the fact that it had so many symbols in it. I started to get on cracking on this message. Now the funny, and very annoying thing is, when I do get this perfectly wrapped messages. There is always a catch, or should a say a soul that needs saving. When ever I get message, to "decode" the message I have to help someone who "just so happens" to help me out. We is my life like this? Don't know. Do sometimes I think I am crazy for always following my "messages" and thinking that is some sort of force that makes everything line up so perfect? ALWAYS!
Anyway, I am going to spare you what I had to go threw to know what the bull and horse stood for. So long story short, I knew that the Two of Swords that was in my pocket was about thinking about your choices. Like you have a wood sword and a iron sword in front of you. Behind you is a child and a man wanting to fight. Are you really going to just pick up a sharp iron sword and use it on a child? Or a wood sword on a man, that looks like it would break if it hit him? No you are more likely to stop and think, even if it is for a split second, on which sword to use for which battle. Plus, right after finding the card. My dad asked me about my job choice. So there was no doubt in my mind that the Two of Swords was there telling me to think before I choose.
It was the horse and the bull that got me. Later I found heard a saying "heart of a bull" from helping out a very cute old woman who lost her husband. The horse was from a mother who lost her family because of a drug addiction but was better now. So she wanted them back but the family still was not letting her back in. It was when she said, "Yeah, see horses on a farm always move my soul." I then put the two together and realized how perfect the meanings fit with what I saw.
So finally I had all the parts of the puzzle, I just had to put them together. My first thought was, "Wait...if the horse was chasing the bull? What does that translate too? The soul and heart fighting?" I was too focused on the interaction with the bull and horse that I forgot something. The bull and horse were not fighting. The bull was scared of the horse as the horse was just standing there. At first, when the horse first came close to the bull, it seemed like they were fighting. With the horse on its back legs kicking at the bull but the bull charged first at the horse. The horse was defending itself. So once I came to realize this the message became a bit more clear.
The bull, or my heart, was just too frightened at the horse. Even those the horse was doing nothing but following the bull. It was still overly terrified by the white beast. Now, I started to think on why the bull would be so scared of the horse. The dream gave my no reason why, so I had to change the question to, "Why would the HEART be scared of the SOUL?" I could think of a answer still. I have no idea why the heart would be scared of the soul. The heart is about emotions and instincts. The soul is about faith and morals. How could those two fight against one another?
Well that is where the Two of Swords comes in. After hours of trying to figure out two parts of the puzzle, I realized that this was a four part puzzle. When combing the Two of Swords meaning with the bull, I understood why it was scared. My father wasn't just there to ask me a question he was also there to let me know what this was about. The reason I couldn't choose family job over the store job, was because I was scared of following my soul which told me choose the store job. As I thought about it, a moral or life lesson I have is never work with family because things can go wrong. That is why the horse and soul were part of this dream. I was feeling to strongly about staying that I was not listening to myself.
Then I remember the bull attacking the horse, that was part of the dream because every time I would follow what I wanted. My emotions about hurting my family's ideas would "attack" by overwhelming me. My soul, the things that make me who I am, would just stand there. Not really going away but not making moves either. That is why when the bull ran away from the horse, the horse just stood there looking at the bull.
I still don't know as I write this if I am going to follow my heart, or my soul. However I now know that I should think about what to do before I act, so at least I know there is hope to solve this conflict. So I learn many things from one dream. As always but what really opened my eyes was that sometimes your emotions can effect who you are as a person. Even make you do things that aren't you. The heart and soul are very similar but even you can have a clash between the two.
So with nothing left to say, I am going to go but I want you to know I write this crazy stuff down for others to see to help them. Maybe there is someone reading this that also has a conflict between their heart and soul. Maybe there is someone who doesn't know what job to take. Who knows! But I hope that this helps them out and that is why I post. Bye!
Most people think that the heart and soul are along the lines of the same thing. Native Americans thought the soul of a creature was in it's heart! It is logical to think that the soul would get along with the heart. We hear about the "Battle of Heart and Mind." as well as the old saying "The Soul can calm the Mind at time." If the heart stood for everything you feel, while the soul stands for everything you believe in, and the mind is everything that is logical. Then one would think what you feel and what you believe in would run together. Even I use to think that the heart and soul were to things that went well together. That was until today.
Last night I had a dream. I was with my father out in the freshly cut corn fields to help him with something. As we were walking to the site where he wanted my help to lay out corn, I stepped on something that shined bright in the sun's rays. I lifted my foot to see that it was my rosemary. I was confused but I just put it in my pocket. But then I felt something in my pocket too. I took it out to see that it was one of my tarot cards. The Two of Swords. Quickly I hid it from my father's sight thinking on why I had it when he started to talk to me. He asked me, "Are you ever going to decide on if you are going to take that job at the store? There is still time if you want to work with your family?" Yes, I am in the classic situation where right now in life I have to choose a job of working with my family or going off on my own with store job. Anyway, back to the dream.
Before I could reply to him a bull come running down the path along the side of the field! It is big and it horns that glowed in the suns rays, where even scarier. It was huge, strong, brown-ish red bull just coming full charge down this corn path. Me and my father just got low to the ground, hoping this mad looking bull would not see us and just run on by. When we got down low, the bull stopped. It started to walk in circles like it was searching for something. It's head was held high, it's ears where going wild, it's chest was stuck out, and the spike like hooves that tore up the ground where ready to run again.
The massive bull started up again as my eyes lock on to it, praying it would not charge me or my father. My father slaps me on the chest with his hand suddenly and says, "Look! Over there!" Past the giant like beast I see a flash of pure white and the pounding of hooves. It was a beautiful white horse charging forward and that is when I realized. This is no mad bull, it is a scared one! As the horse came closer and closer the bull thrashed about madly as if to stay, "BACK OFF!". The pure white horse did not listen. Soon within seconds the horse was on it's hind legs kicking at the bull and the bull was thrashing it's massive spiked horns at the horse.
The horse, still throwing it's powerful legs around, back off enough so the bull could get away. However it soon was trapped by a mental fence that went around the corn field. It was boxed in with me and my father right in it's way! Making a mad dash me and my father just run for it to jump over the fence before the bull gets us. The bull and the horse where too busy to notice us thankfully but as I turned back to see what was happening. I noticed that the horse wasn't so scary anymore. The white strong horse was standing there watching the bull. The horse wasn't attacking, it was following the bull. The bull though was so scared of this horse that it crashed into the mental fence with a loud thunder like crash! That is when I woke up.
The dream was vivid and the fact that it had so many symbols in it. I started to get on cracking on this message. Now the funny, and very annoying thing is, when I do get this perfectly wrapped messages. There is always a catch, or should a say a soul that needs saving. When ever I get message, to "decode" the message I have to help someone who "just so happens" to help me out. We is my life like this? Don't know. Do sometimes I think I am crazy for always following my "messages" and thinking that is some sort of force that makes everything line up so perfect? ALWAYS!
Anyway, I am going to spare you what I had to go threw to know what the bull and horse stood for. So long story short, I knew that the Two of Swords that was in my pocket was about thinking about your choices. Like you have a wood sword and a iron sword in front of you. Behind you is a child and a man wanting to fight. Are you really going to just pick up a sharp iron sword and use it on a child? Or a wood sword on a man, that looks like it would break if it hit him? No you are more likely to stop and think, even if it is for a split second, on which sword to use for which battle. Plus, right after finding the card. My dad asked me about my job choice. So there was no doubt in my mind that the Two of Swords was there telling me to think before I choose.
It was the horse and the bull that got me. Later I found heard a saying "heart of a bull" from helping out a very cute old woman who lost her husband. The horse was from a mother who lost her family because of a drug addiction but was better now. So she wanted them back but the family still was not letting her back in. It was when she said, "Yeah, see horses on a farm always move my soul." I then put the two together and realized how perfect the meanings fit with what I saw.
So finally I had all the parts of the puzzle, I just had to put them together. My first thought was, "Wait...if the horse was chasing the bull? What does that translate too? The soul and heart fighting?" I was too focused on the interaction with the bull and horse that I forgot something. The bull and horse were not fighting. The bull was scared of the horse as the horse was just standing there. At first, when the horse first came close to the bull, it seemed like they were fighting. With the horse on its back legs kicking at the bull but the bull charged first at the horse. The horse was defending itself. So once I came to realize this the message became a bit more clear.
The bull, or my heart, was just too frightened at the horse. Even those the horse was doing nothing but following the bull. It was still overly terrified by the white beast. Now, I started to think on why the bull would be so scared of the horse. The dream gave my no reason why, so I had to change the question to, "Why would the HEART be scared of the SOUL?" I could think of a answer still. I have no idea why the heart would be scared of the soul. The heart is about emotions and instincts. The soul is about faith and morals. How could those two fight against one another?
Well that is where the Two of Swords comes in. After hours of trying to figure out two parts of the puzzle, I realized that this was a four part puzzle. When combing the Two of Swords meaning with the bull, I understood why it was scared. My father wasn't just there to ask me a question he was also there to let me know what this was about. The reason I couldn't choose family job over the store job, was because I was scared of following my soul which told me choose the store job. As I thought about it, a moral or life lesson I have is never work with family because things can go wrong. That is why the horse and soul were part of this dream. I was feeling to strongly about staying that I was not listening to myself.
Then I remember the bull attacking the horse, that was part of the dream because every time I would follow what I wanted. My emotions about hurting my family's ideas would "attack" by overwhelming me. My soul, the things that make me who I am, would just stand there. Not really going away but not making moves either. That is why when the bull ran away from the horse, the horse just stood there looking at the bull.
I still don't know as I write this if I am going to follow my heart, or my soul. However I now know that I should think about what to do before I act, so at least I know there is hope to solve this conflict. So I learn many things from one dream. As always but what really opened my eyes was that sometimes your emotions can effect who you are as a person. Even make you do things that aren't you. The heart and soul are very similar but even you can have a clash between the two.
So with nothing left to say, I am going to go but I want you to know I write this crazy stuff down for others to see to help them. Maybe there is someone reading this that also has a conflict between their heart and soul. Maybe there is someone who doesn't know what job to take. Who knows! But I hope that this helps them out and that is why I post. Bye!
26-30, M
