I Have Done Things I Am Not Proud of

I lived a double life for about a year, I had met my Now fiancé and we began dating, but I couldn't tell my family or work I live in very rural area and worked in construction, not a very open minded enviroment as you can imagine. So instead I tried to juggle two lives in two different parts of the U.K., working a full time job and looking after my parents who are both ill in England, and traveling down to my Partner in Wales whenever I could.
It was too much for me to handle, and my life began to unravel quickly. I sank into debt trying to commute, working night shifts and dayshift in dangerous construction jobs just to make ends meet. I lied to everyone about where I was going, constantly altering dates and times in order to try and make an impossible situation work, and please everybody. I missed very important Birthdays, cancelled holidays planned long in advance, blew of work compleatly with no notice given, and once even left the England with no indication of where I was or what I was doing, something that upset my family and friends a great deal.
I do regret what I did greatly, I was a coward and a fool, trying to please everyone and only causing hurt. Everything is out in the open now, and for that I'm thankful, it's an episode of my life I don't like to dwell on too much.