I Am In Love With Her But She Doesn't Love Me Back

You Don't Know How Much You're Hurting Me... I feel like you are coming up with excuses to break it off with me. As the time gets closer for us to be together, you keep finding reasons why we should wait. I think it's so you don't feel guilty about ridding yourself of me. You are slowly realizing that you aren't in love with me. I'm not who you want to spend your life with and perhaps you are even thinking you want to date and see what is out there. You keep getting more and more guys interested in you as they find out about your divorce, and i'm sure they are more of what you are wanting financially as well as better looking. I get it. As usual i'm good but just not quite good enough. I'm a good fallback guy in case something doesn't work out with someone else. Not a problem. I'm used to it by now. I can't change myself...if I could I would. Unfortunately I am the way I am and in the situation I am in and it can't be changed overnight. You've found your backbone and are realizing all the possibilities that are open for you. I'm just not one of those possibilities that is enticing. I helped build up your self esteem and wipe away your tears. Too bad it's another man that will get to appreciate the person you've become. As for me, I get to slink back into the shell of a person I was before, once again damaged, only this time it's probably beyond repair. A person can only be thrown away so many times, rejected so many times, made to feel worthless so many times. I'm what someone needs until they find themselves...then I'm the last thing they want in their lives. Always always coming in last, always second best, always the one that someone could settle for if they had to.