I checked old text messages, just to see if there were any--from any point in time. Since normally we communicate on FB messenger, I was unsure if there would even be anything of substance. I was wrong. There was just enough there to send me into a heartbreaking spiral, accompanied by streaming tears and silent sobbing. The words I used to take comfort in, the words I desperately wish to hear again, all laid out for me to see, in all of their deceiving glory. Lies painted so sweetly, I could taste them. Is it any wonder I was so deeply in love with him. I thought I could trust him. I thought my deepest secrets and my most painful insecurities were safe with him. As it turns out, I was wrong. Now I sit in the rain, listening to sad songs, so I can let my heartache breathe and move on, until the next time.