I Am Alone

I've kept it all inside. Every word and every line I could keep secret for any length of time, I've kept it all inside. Everything I've gone through is but a battle in one mind. The ones who love me most know nothing of my life, but I don't feel regret that it's all just been a lie, because the ones who love me most have been looking in my eyes. They've ignored my silent cries and now my life has passed them by. Is it really all my fault I was too damn scared to try that I kept it all inside? I've heard the words you've let fly without a thought to how they'll slice, but how much harder is being nice? So I'll never trust you to know my guise from fear your nasty knife you apparently find so hard to hide.
I'll go to sleep tonight and it'll be alright, I'll let the memories pass me by because we were never tight. You're my family till I die but it's time we said goodbye, to the thought that we'll be anything but another empty smile. You don't need to be proud of me but I hope I was worthwhile, if not I'll be fine though and I'll just add it to the pile of shit I hold inside, and then get through it like I always do with no one on my side. I'll keep going like I always have, yes I'm gonna try, and I'll put my trust in myself with whom I now rely. It's time to end this nigh, so I ask you'll forgive the pride because it's how I'm still alive, but at least you now know why I keep my life boxed up inside...