I Had An Affair

I said goodbye and meant it. Got on that train and tried to make the memory of how you looked that day standing at the station, sunlight all around you - a photo, a secret painful picture to keep in my heart. I stopped replying to your messages - I stopped checking that inbox for fear of the anger I know you feel towards me. I put myself into some kind of denial, you meant nothing to me. I didn't care. I never loved you. I tried to forget all about you.

It's been 6 months since I've saw you.

I did the facebook thing.

And there you are, smiling, with another woman. All I can do is sit here alone in my office and try not forget the life I never chose. The man I let go for everybodies sakes. I hope you are as happy as you look. I wish I could say sorry.