I Keep Too Many Things to Myself

A storm of thoughts in my mind
Sowed seeds of chaos in my soul
Outside, I hold a shell of serenity
To hide the confusion lately sowed

The fast currents of days carry me away
Pulling me in different directions
Exigent matters threaten to sweep me
Into a swirl of tough moments and moods

If only I could wake up in the mornings
And stand on truths like stones in a river
That could lead me across the chaos in life
I could use a few of those steppingstones.

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Lochlee · 51-55, F

I have always kept things to myself, and strangely prefer it that way. Your only strength is your own strength, and the only truths are your own convictions. I am sorry you are going through a hard time, I wish you well as you face this battle.

SW-User

@Lochlee Thank you. I find strength in silence and just keeping things to myself. I've gotten used to it. In times of trouble I remind myself, "This too, shall pass."

Lochlee · 51-55, F

My favourite mantra :-) and it is true. But yes, it is lonely battling alone (sometimes even surrounded by people who don't have a clue, holding it together..I know the feeling). But it does pass and as long as you maintain your ability to appreciate beauty and keep and cultivate your sense of joy (which it seems you are able to do), you come out the other side. Best wishes.

SW-User

Thank you. Bless you.🙂

Sukiesnow · F

Why keep them to yourself?

SW-User

@Sukiesnow Well, it's just the way I am. I tend to internalize things.🙂

Sukiesnow · F

@SW-User what helped me might help you. Taking an Improv Course with our Second City really helped bring me out of myself. Everyone was so helpful and understanding...so supportive...and it was [i]so[/i] much fun!

SW-User

@Sukiesnow Oh, thank you for the suggestion. I'll check it out. 🙂

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