I Write Poetry
[b] EVICTED [/b]
You make me so mad
The pressure of the anger always makes me feel as if im going to explode.
But the love I have for you would never let me dissect you into pieces
The love I have for you ..saves you ..from me
The real me
The inner me
You know. . the one im not sure everyone knows is lurking behind this smile
I love you so much
I cradled your mistakes
I wrapped my arms around them so tightly until they become my own disappointments
Leaving me to bury them in my secret chamber of regrets
Ive ripped my voice box out for you
Dismembered the strings piece by piece
Until the words just disappeared
I didn't know what to say to get through to you
So I drowned my words..
I left them floating in the pit of my stomach
Hoping they stay there and dont come back up like vomit
I always went against my logic with you
So my mind disowned me too.
Treated me like a stepchild she never even wanted
She's silent
Won't offer any apologies or relief
No options or help
Just a cold shoulder
That seem to ice over with every fleeting moment
I couldn't stand up to you
And now you walk all over my love freely
My backbone that once was so strong
Is yet another memory
And even then ... In time
I started to forget
I was loved once upon a time
&
It wasn't a fairytale dream
I loved myself so deeply
I remember that much
I remember the smiles
And the times I knew life was what I made it
And you weren't the one controlling my emotions
And I can't believe you robbed me of that
Now im on a mission
To steal it back
You got me writing myself notes to prove im not crazy
You broke my wall down.
Bit by bit only to hurt me
Now I'm fighting
Pushing through all this negativity
& now I'm snatching the remnants of the wreckage
and kicking you out..
I'm done.
Is a understatement
You can break through those same walls you destroyed getting in on the way out
Funny, I was so sure love used to live here
But now, not so much.
You make me so mad
The pressure of the anger always makes me feel as if im going to explode.
But the love I have for you would never let me dissect you into pieces
The love I have for you ..saves you ..from me
The real me
The inner me
You know. . the one im not sure everyone knows is lurking behind this smile
I love you so much
I cradled your mistakes
I wrapped my arms around them so tightly until they become my own disappointments
Leaving me to bury them in my secret chamber of regrets
Ive ripped my voice box out for you
Dismembered the strings piece by piece
Until the words just disappeared
I didn't know what to say to get through to you
So I drowned my words..
I left them floating in the pit of my stomach
Hoping they stay there and dont come back up like vomit
I always went against my logic with you
So my mind disowned me too.
Treated me like a stepchild she never even wanted
She's silent
Won't offer any apologies or relief
No options or help
Just a cold shoulder
That seem to ice over with every fleeting moment
I couldn't stand up to you
And now you walk all over my love freely
My backbone that once was so strong
Is yet another memory
And even then ... In time
I started to forget
I was loved once upon a time
&
It wasn't a fairytale dream
I loved myself so deeply
I remember that much
I remember the smiles
And the times I knew life was what I made it
And you weren't the one controlling my emotions
And I can't believe you robbed me of that
Now im on a mission
To steal it back
You got me writing myself notes to prove im not crazy
You broke my wall down.
Bit by bit only to hurt me
Now I'm fighting
Pushing through all this negativity
& now I'm snatching the remnants of the wreckage
and kicking you out..
I'm done.
Is a understatement
You can break through those same walls you destroyed getting in on the way out
Funny, I was so sure love used to live here
But now, not so much.
