I Am Always Improving Myself
I feel a little awkward about some guests coming from abroad to stay over the house for a month.
They're family of my friend and roommate. She hasn't seen them in a few years.
After the fact, I think I remember the first time mention of a possible and likely impending visit from family, probably several months ago, but I didn't really think nothing of it.
More so deep down surely wishfully thinking and hoping that wouldn't become a realization.
But the months went by, the days went by, and I continued hearing talk of this.
Barely several days ago, I could no longer turn a blind eye or ear, so to speak.
I received confirmation.
She says, "They'll be arriving this upcoming weekend."
Fast forward, and that day is actually tomorrow. Actually, they arrive evening.
Well, at least I got a little bit of good news yesterday.
She pleasures in whatever tortures me...lol... So, initially she had told me that it was three family members coming to visit, her maternal aunt and two cousins.
However, I feel a little less uncomfortable about the visit after yesterday that she confessed that she was only kidding, that in reality it is only her aunt that's coming.
But still.
So what exactly is my problem with her family coming over to visit?
Uhm, I've never met her aunt. So it's nothing personal.
It's just probably going to feel like one too many people at the house.
Besides roommate and I, two other people reside at the house.
Okay okay, I admit that's not the real problem.
I confess that the uncomfortable feeling revolves primarily with an issue of mine that I've never really shared here before that pertains to struggles with a slight case of social anxiety, sometimes.
Nowadays, compared to before, I've definitely without a doubt made some major progress with this issue.
However, apparently, I haven't completely overcome the issue altogether.
When exposed to certain situations, sometimes suddenly out of nowhere I am overcome with those uncomfortable and restless feelings.
I continue working on making improvement.
They're family of my friend and roommate. She hasn't seen them in a few years.
After the fact, I think I remember the first time mention of a possible and likely impending visit from family, probably several months ago, but I didn't really think nothing of it.
More so deep down surely wishfully thinking and hoping that wouldn't become a realization.
But the months went by, the days went by, and I continued hearing talk of this.
Barely several days ago, I could no longer turn a blind eye or ear, so to speak.
I received confirmation.
She says, "They'll be arriving this upcoming weekend."
Fast forward, and that day is actually tomorrow. Actually, they arrive evening.
Well, at least I got a little bit of good news yesterday.
She pleasures in whatever tortures me...lol... So, initially she had told me that it was three family members coming to visit, her maternal aunt and two cousins.
However, I feel a little less uncomfortable about the visit after yesterday that she confessed that she was only kidding, that in reality it is only her aunt that's coming.
But still.
So what exactly is my problem with her family coming over to visit?
Uhm, I've never met her aunt. So it's nothing personal.
It's just probably going to feel like one too many people at the house.
Besides roommate and I, two other people reside at the house.
Okay okay, I admit that's not the real problem.
I confess that the uncomfortable feeling revolves primarily with an issue of mine that I've never really shared here before that pertains to struggles with a slight case of social anxiety, sometimes.
Nowadays, compared to before, I've definitely without a doubt made some major progress with this issue.
However, apparently, I haven't completely overcome the issue altogether.
When exposed to certain situations, sometimes suddenly out of nowhere I am overcome with those uncomfortable and restless feelings.
I continue working on making improvement.
