I Express Myself Through Writing

I love expressing myself through saying it and writing but lately I haven't been able to because no matter where I try to express myself I'm walking on land mines not egg shells, I want to just let these feelings go and just feel light instead of feeling so much pressure on my shoulders and I wanna get rid of these headaches I get for holding what I wanna say in like not being able to express yourself .SUCKS !! It just feels like you walls closing in n you want to pop but no matter how close the walls get no air comes out or any type of pop until you are just completely flat against the walls with broken bones and nothing to say because you keept it all inside but even if you say one thing you just stepped on landmine that was just waiting for you to move an inch