Had a quick glance at your posts. Maybe Ptsd? If it lasts try and get some professional help and advice

Hi Sonntag...I read your comment and know many, many people feel the same way you do.I have also read your comments and its pretty clear you have a lot of things going on inn that head of yours! Do you get outside very much? Do you like to walk or run or get excercise doing something fun?
I think a lot of people have the same depression you are feeling...its hard to know what is exactly wrong, but gettig some excercise and less computer in the daytime might help ⚽

Sounds like a symptom of some depressive conditions.

Did you quiet something you love recently?

I think that's depression?