I Am Being Gang Stalked

I wonder what it's like to be a respected member of the Community? All I have ever known was to be under a false investigation and exploited and spread evil against my name and persecuted.....sure for a few weeks they were exploiting me as a Saint, but people only focused and magnified the bad and shown me hatred and forgot about the good. I am terrified to make a real connection with others for fear that they were already briefed about me and told lies about me that I could never make a good impression after that and I fear that my burden is too heavy for anyone to help carry....I'm a good person, it's just that I have a mental illness and it got me in trouble 17 years ago I've been under investigation and exploited ever since.......The last places where they destroyed my reputation was at my place of refuge....the hospital.