I Would Like To Share My Thought Of The Day
For the longest time I kept quiet..
I told no one about how I really feel..
they're all clueless about my life and they all think that I had it easy. They know I got noone and they all believe that it's because I choose to be. And yes, I probably have decided to be alone but noone really bothered to ask why. In fact, I don't even know the reason why, at least not until I met you.
Meeting you made me see the beauty in life, the fun in friendship, the goodness of living, the sweetness of missing someone and the freedom of sharing things no other people could ever understand. You were one of the best gifts God has given me. I know I did not deserve you then and still do not deserve you now and maybe that is the reason why.
Sometimes when I look back, I can't help but wish for time to turn back to those times when I have not met you yet. Or those times when everything between us were not yet as complicated. I know it's impossible but that's all I have right now.. our happy memories that now never fails to make me cry and those good times that we had that until now I keep on wishing to experience again.
I know.. I know.. you told me to move on.. and believe me I tried... I tried so hard that I ended up living like this for months. I kept myself busy with work, hobbies and everything else.. and for a few months I was okay.. at least, that is how it felt. But now, I realized that I am not. I never was. Maybe I need more time.. maybe I need another thing going.. another person who'd pick me up.. or maybe I just need you..
I told no one about how I really feel..
they're all clueless about my life and they all think that I had it easy. They know I got noone and they all believe that it's because I choose to be. And yes, I probably have decided to be alone but noone really bothered to ask why. In fact, I don't even know the reason why, at least not until I met you.
Meeting you made me see the beauty in life, the fun in friendship, the goodness of living, the sweetness of missing someone and the freedom of sharing things no other people could ever understand. You were one of the best gifts God has given me. I know I did not deserve you then and still do not deserve you now and maybe that is the reason why.
Sometimes when I look back, I can't help but wish for time to turn back to those times when I have not met you yet. Or those times when everything between us were not yet as complicated. I know it's impossible but that's all I have right now.. our happy memories that now never fails to make me cry and those good times that we had that until now I keep on wishing to experience again.
I know.. I know.. you told me to move on.. and believe me I tried... I tried so hard that I ended up living like this for months. I kept myself busy with work, hobbies and everything else.. and for a few months I was okay.. at least, that is how it felt. But now, I realized that I am not. I never was. Maybe I need more time.. maybe I need another thing going.. another person who'd pick me up.. or maybe I just need you..
