I really do wanna put a bullet to my head but I can't at the moment because theres things I still wanna do before I die.
I'm just so young and I know i'd probably regret it. I've always wanted to go to Australia and meet an Aboriginal and make Aboriginal friends. And even tho I hate the cold,I wanna live in Alaska for like a month and see the northern lights in person. I wanna find the love of my life and get married. Theres still food I wanna try. I wanna go to the Heart Attack Cafe in Las Vegas and try one of their cheeseburgers. And sooo much more. So, theres alot of stuff thats stopping me from ending it all together. I am totally ok. And plus I know i'm going to hell, so i'd rather be alive on the Earth dealing with the bullshit in my life than to be burning in hell for entirety and plus theres still time for me to make it right with God.