I Need You, I Miss You, I Want You

I dont know how to feel.... i really am happy i have my family with me but.. i miss you mom, i miss you this christmas eve its our first one christmas eve and christmas without you and everyone talked about you how good of a cook you were and how awesome of a person you were like it was fun remembering you but now that everyone is having fun and i sit on the table i remember you and i feel i can see you sitting at the couch just smiling but i know you're not there i just sat there starring at the couch where you would sit with my heart in my throat but holding in the hurt happy seeing everyone having fun i just want you to know that i miss you a lot i miss you and if i could have one last christmas gift from you it would be for you to come back, just have time with you again and just talk all day and night and tell you how much we miss you ... i want you back, i miss you a lot

Merry Christmas ma i love you