It is hard but really that phone is not ringing anymore so stop waiting, I have waited for same thing before but it never ranged. Just move on, I feel your pain, I so much feel your pain but time will heal everything.

Im sorry you going through this.

I use to feel this way,
Now, to hell with it.
They know were I am.
If they wanted to they'd contact me.
Carrying a torch only makes you miserable.
Have to move on, hard as that is.
Hope you can reach this stage, eventually.

I've been in this place. It does get better.....but it takes time.