Because being IN LOVE with you is not good for me. And being AROUND you perpetuates that love. And being away from you compounds the PAIN to the point where I can't even BREATH and my head hurts from crying but I can't close my eyes because I slip into memories of YOU. And while I'm in agony over the loss of what I THOUGHT was an amazing relationship, you merely feel SORRY about my sadness. But for me it is more than sadness because it is LOSS. It is grief that overwhelms me, especially when I'm ALONE and no one is here to hold me. And when I realize that, I become NUMB.