I Am Single

Frustrations Of Dating... I had a date yesterday, first one in as many months. Usually I seem to average about one date a year, maybe even two on a good year. The quantity doesn't really matter to me since my goal is obviously quality. Which is really what brings me here... it feels difficult enough to meet women. Oddly enough most of my previous handicaps/deal breakers never stopped me before. Things like I didn't have a job, couldn't travel easily to a place to meet her, or couldn't figure out what to wear. I've somehow managed to go on dates despite all those things. This time I managed to set up a date without any of those handicaps (not that they mattered) yet as well as things went things probably could have gone better.

For what Its worth it was exciting to put myself out there, it was exciting getting ready, and making my way out. At one point I almost accidentally introduced myself to the wrong person (oops!)

They're all memories good or bad valuable ones nonetheless. The frustration for me comes in when I have to repeat the whole process all over again. To go back to talking to different people, learning all about them, meeting up with them to figure out if there was something there worth pursuing and if there isn't having them disappear from your life as quickly as they came in.

I suppose it's part of life, but it weighs on me having to lose people like that. It's bad enough pursuing people who end up just not being interested for whatever reason. But to pursue, engage, and then walk away from all that is even worse... Still in taking the long view at some point it'll all be worth it :)

All's fair in love and war indeed (even if I am not using it in the most appropriate of contexts)