I Want a Girlfriend

Maybe. Maybe the experience of having a relationship is something you'll need to mature, but don't lose yourself. Have your own goals, your own passions. Don't abandon your hobbies. Eventhough it might seen like a relationship is going to last forever, they CAN end at anytime. Just experienced it firsthand. Chances are you'll still have lots of them, so don't worry.

and then they'll break you and you'll try again for the rest of your life until you die