Do you watch shows that make you uncomfortable?
I’m watching My 600-Lb. Life and it makes me want to shove my arm down my throat and force everything I’ve eaten out of my body.
Then again, as someone who’s been through so much trauma, I realize I’m no different from them. We both eat, and at times during my binges I’m sure I eat as much as those people on the show.
The difference is that it doesn’t get past my stomach. It comes back up at will. There’s still guilt. There’s still horrible despair sometimes. I’m only different from them on the outside.
Then again, as someone who’s been through so much trauma, I realize I’m no different from them. We both eat, and at times during my binges I’m sure I eat as much as those people on the show.
The difference is that it doesn’t get past my stomach. It comes back up at will. There’s still guilt. There’s still horrible despair sometimes. I’m only different from them on the outside.
