Sorry it always sounds like I'm throwing myself a pity party

I just use this place to vent a lot. I dont mean to sound like that...but I have no other outlet for feelings if I can't say it here I'd explode, so we'll continue with my dumbass sob story:
I know it might be iber exaggerating but I wanna die. How am I supposed to see her tomorrow at work? How can I go about my day without telling anyone? I got no one close to me anymore I'm fucking alone and have been for years. I can't take it. Im done I want out. I don't have enough self love to wanna stay alive I'm just a worthlessness human being anyway I can't add anything worthwhile to the world, might as well die Young. Only the good do, right?