The urge to selfhram still lives

I know the feeling all too well, but you’re still here, this life favors those more who fight and who spend their time making themselves the best that they can be, you are free to do just about anything, the world is your playground, all kinds of experiences to be had, people to meet, emotions to be felt, if you gather the strength today to fight the world tomorrow, you may come out of the end happy and fulfilled

I picked up a razor blade and pushed it onto my wrist but did not pull it in the slice motion. Old habits die hard :/