Last year after my son died I was so depressed. I had no one near me to help with my dad so I could take a small break. I asked my sister who lived 12 hours away to please come I needed her to help. She said no. I gave my heart to this woman, spent 5 months with helping her through chemo from cancer. Sent her over time thousands of dollars and she refused to help me in my darkest hour. I didn’t speak to her till in February this year she called talk to dad and I heard something wrong in her voice. I took the phone asked her what was up? You see I still love her. She told me her only daughter 34 had died from an OD. She kept crying so hard telling me she was sorry. I guess she realized losing your child isn’t like any other pain you can feel. Even losing her mom and dear grandmother wasn’t this horrible pain. But she doesn’t still understand the pain I went through by myself. She had her husband and friends support. She slept for days. People brought food. I gave her a thousand dollars to help out cause I couldn’t leave my dad. I don’t begrudge her anything. I said let the pass be I love you and will be here for you. She’s even came to visit. Thing is she says things that brings up the old wound from last year. I’ve tried and tried but it’s there and I don’t like myself when it comes up. It hurts me so bad. She’s just plain selfish. Example, she said to me I want to be there for you when dad passes. I want to be there to support you. What?? My mind automatically thinks why? Where was you when I was breaking down? I needed you then and you dismissed me like I was nothing. Your time for giving me help is gone. See what I mean? I feel ugly and small for it but I can’t help it. I don’t let people inside my heart and she was the first in a long time now she’s ripped out. It just confuses me. Her best friend is dying in a hospital 2 1/2 hours from her and she won’t go to her. I just don’t understand. If I had a friend like her best friend who came clean her house while she mourned for her daughter. Helped her also through her cancer ordeal. And she won’t go to her bedside. I had enough I blocked her on my phone. I’m not saying anything else. It hurts me too much. Selfish, selfish person. Takes, takes and doesn’t give back. Go away. Am I wrong?
@rickoo164 Except she doesn’t all the time and if she insisted he would have relented. It was only an excuse. Believe me if she had a genuine reason I would’ve understood. I’m not a small person by nature.
