I could be by myself or around others, still feel alone and knowing that my presences doesn't matter doesn't help. I am use to it, but that doesn't mean I welcome it, i just can't get ride of it. I tried people advice of making friends, the problem is those around me are the absolute worst and I mean that in every way. Those that I did consider friends just see the "hey" and don't ever respond, but if something good/beneficially happen I get a message. I hate being alone.