I Do Not Like People to See Me Cry

Anytime I'm in the presence of others, friends and sometimes family and I have the urge to cry or be emotional I suck it up so that I don't show it. I don't like showing others my tears because I don't want them to see I'm in pain, I just hold it in and smile sometimes because i won't allow myself to cry...I won't lie there have been instance where I have cried in front of people or friends, but it has happen very rarely...