Feeling anxious about leaving the job I apparently “hate”.

My current job is quite up in the air. My manager doesn’t have any structure to my job and I don’t know how I’m adding value to anything or the wider company.

I’m young (24) and although I’ve worked since I was 16 this job is my “first career” job. I don’t really like my team but they are okay. We can converse without it being too awkward. I’m really helpful in my team but it kind of goes unappericated. I don’t know if this is work but the whole department has been awful (long story). I want to take my lessons learned in my role (1.5 years now) and start fresh.

But I’m anxious. What if this job is as good as it gets? Or I hate my new team? Of course I’ll think positive but I’m torn. When I mentioned to my manager I may explore other options he has been telling me that this job is good and to be patient. But nothing has changed. Still no clue what I’m doing. I come in and do nothing most days besides admin (which is not my job).

Anyway. I hope my next job (which I hope to stay in minimum 2 years) is great.