It would seem so rare someone would meet their demise in that way. I'm sorry you lost your friend. I understand the depression and loneliness from that.
Let me know if you'd like to talk.
💗

I lost my best friend to a massive Heart Attack 5 years ago. It is hard to be isolated and feel as if no-one understands. But life goes on and we must too.

Would our friends want anything else?

They are no longer here and we miss their love and loving them. But, we can Honour them and their memory by living the best we can for them:)

Thank you for sharing ... expressing yourself will help ...may Angel's of peace be with you

You've now encountered death. Maybe you just need to firm up your beliefs about continuation past death. Hopefully you'll reach an optimistic conclusion.