Yeah, I think I am crazy.

I just accept the skin I'm in. What's the use in wishing for something else, when nothing can be done to change that? I can change my actions, but I can't change the core of my person. I find people who love me for [i]who[/i] I am and not for what I can give to them.

Turn off the voices in your head. This a practice that takes time and can't be forced. Find someplace quiet and just allow the thoughts to flow through.