Have you ever lied to yourself?

Sure. And paid for it! Never happened again. That was long ago. Live and learn.

Yes. About my beliefs tbh. Age 9-15; I knew there was something off about Jesus Christ and Catholicism (and all religions in general). I [u][i]always [/i][/u]questioned my religion... but I was scared about just dropping all I ever thought I knew.
At age 16 I accepted that I stopped truly believing in God for years, and therefore also accepted that I was atheist.

All the time..whenever it occurs to me that I'm doing it I get depressed.

Pshh! Who do you think I am? I do that all the time to cope with reality.

Every minute of every day.. not a minute goes by

Oh I was a master at it for much of my life.

Every bloody day!!

yes. no. yes. no.... ok yes.

Every day.

All the time