Are you vegan at heart?

No I'm agressivly carnivorous to the point of cannibalism at heart

Yes. In practice midway between that and a vegetarian. I do like some cheese, as in cauliflower au gratin , occasional garlic mayonnaise, a very occasional cake.

I’ve been a vegan for a few months now maybe even nearly a year

I like my meat too much.
Love eating meat too much

Not even at heart. I like poultry and seafood along with my veggies.