I Want to Find My Soulmate
Is it a soulmate I want?
I just want to find a place where I can exist in my many forms and be cherished and desired and loved.
I want to return that.
I don't want to doubt.
I want to believe.
But that is all just a silly childish dream.
I am a married woman.
I have never felt the things above about my husband. I wish I did. I wonder do I try hard enough. How naive it is to think these things come naturally?
But I was a broken soul when I met my husband and subconsciously he has done his best to keep me broken.
I just don't want to be broken anymore.
I just want you to come and take me away from this.
To hold my hand.
To protect me.
To believe in me.
To believe I am worth believing in.
But it's not going to happen.
Because I am broken and you don't believe.
I feel sad.
I feel stuck.
But most of all i am tired.
Tired of dreaming.
Tired of being.
So very very tired.
I just want to find a place where I can exist in my many forms and be cherished and desired and loved.
I want to return that.
I don't want to doubt.
I want to believe.
But that is all just a silly childish dream.
I am a married woman.
I have never felt the things above about my husband. I wish I did. I wonder do I try hard enough. How naive it is to think these things come naturally?
But I was a broken soul when I met my husband and subconsciously he has done his best to keep me broken.
I just don't want to be broken anymore.
I just want you to come and take me away from this.
To hold my hand.
To protect me.
To believe in me.
To believe I am worth believing in.
But it's not going to happen.
Because I am broken and you don't believe.
I feel sad.
I feel stuck.
But most of all i am tired.
Tired of dreaming.
Tired of being.
So very very tired.