Coming to terms with my parents?
For the past few years, my parents and I have had different views in life (to make this entire story short: their extremists when it comes to religion while I no longer believe in/practice "our" religion). It caused [i]many[/i] battles and severe depression (for both me and my parents), and quite frankly, I am tired of it. I want to end this long battle.
I told them that I no longer believed in God, and they act like I didn't tell them anything. They still expect me to be someone I used to be a very long time ago (I used to have a better relationship with my parents when I was younger, and it's gradually getting worse). Now, I'm keeping many things from them (such as my relationship a secret, my hobbies, my social life, etc.) that I'd like to tell them, but if I do, a huge storm will start. I'm tired of keeping secrets, but I'm scared of letting them out. I've lost someone extremely important to me because of my parents (and because of the other person's parents). I go behind their backs a lot, and I hate it (but you gotta do what you gotta do). I don't drugs or smoke. I just want a life, but it's not the life I am allowed to have.
I'm getting older, and they can't keep me locked up in the house forever. It's only a matter of time now. I don't want to become an adult where I don't go to my parents when I am in need of help, or when I just need someone to talk to. They've held me back on so many things, and put me down on things that matter a lot to me. I have 0 support from my parents. If it weren't for my older siblings (I am one of 3), I probably would have been in a much worse situation (they help me out a lot, because they have gone through a lot of the same stuff). I don't even know how to explain this whole situation properly without writing a whole novel. Sorry if this is all over the place.
Side note:
My siblings and I used to go to a private school that only went up to 10th grade, so when my older sister got too old for the school, our dad forced her to take her GED, because he didn't want to send her to a public school. His excuse was because he didn't want her to get pregnant.
First of all, our parents raised us better than that (you can get in trouble for the smallest things such as not changing the roll of toilet paper). Second, my sister could have gotten pregnant at the private school (it wasn't an all girls school), so his excuse was invalid. Third, my sister is an extremely careful person, and she's smart. I don't believe she can be that stupid (she's married now, so...), and neither do my parents. She looks out for herself. Our cousins went to the public school that she should have gone to, so she had family to look out for her if such a situation ever did occur.
I go to this public school now (my mom put her foot down), and I have not seen any girl pregnant. Our school is not known for stuff like that. The worst it gets are people doing weed and smoking. Everyone is kind to everyone (mostly), and the teachers are cool (most of them). We're like one big, weird family.
I told them that I no longer believed in God, and they act like I didn't tell them anything. They still expect me to be someone I used to be a very long time ago (I used to have a better relationship with my parents when I was younger, and it's gradually getting worse). Now, I'm keeping many things from them (such as my relationship a secret, my hobbies, my social life, etc.) that I'd like to tell them, but if I do, a huge storm will start. I'm tired of keeping secrets, but I'm scared of letting them out. I've lost someone extremely important to me because of my parents (and because of the other person's parents). I go behind their backs a lot, and I hate it (but you gotta do what you gotta do). I don't drugs or smoke. I just want a life, but it's not the life I am allowed to have.
I'm getting older, and they can't keep me locked up in the house forever. It's only a matter of time now. I don't want to become an adult where I don't go to my parents when I am in need of help, or when I just need someone to talk to. They've held me back on so many things, and put me down on things that matter a lot to me. I have 0 support from my parents. If it weren't for my older siblings (I am one of 3), I probably would have been in a much worse situation (they help me out a lot, because they have gone through a lot of the same stuff). I don't even know how to explain this whole situation properly without writing a whole novel. Sorry if this is all over the place.
Side note:
My siblings and I used to go to a private school that only went up to 10th grade, so when my older sister got too old for the school, our dad forced her to take her GED, because he didn't want to send her to a public school. His excuse was because he didn't want her to get pregnant.
First of all, our parents raised us better than that (you can get in trouble for the smallest things such as not changing the roll of toilet paper). Second, my sister could have gotten pregnant at the private school (it wasn't an all girls school), so his excuse was invalid. Third, my sister is an extremely careful person, and she's smart. I don't believe she can be that stupid (she's married now, so...), and neither do my parents. She looks out for herself. Our cousins went to the public school that she should have gone to, so she had family to look out for her if such a situation ever did occur.
I go to this public school now (my mom put her foot down), and I have not seen any girl pregnant. Our school is not known for stuff like that. The worst it gets are people doing weed and smoking. Everyone is kind to everyone (mostly), and the teachers are cool (most of them). We're like one big, weird family.
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