My mom stood me up for dinner last night! How am I suppose to react (brutally honest answers please)?

My mom and I agreed to meet up for dinner. Last night, I have waited for her for three hours and she NEVER showed up. I though she had trouble with the car or work late and I kept making excuses. My mom did that to me before even before she walked out on us. She wanted to have her own life and chose drugs over us before she left. I have been having thoughts about what everyone warned me about staying woth my deadbeat mother that only thinks about herself. I've been in England for four days now. I can hear my best friend saying, "I told you so." I confronted my mom about it and she said, "Well I just forgot," and she didn't even apologize or felt horrible. My mom always disappoints me but at least she had a good excuse.
I'm going back to bed. It's 5:30am where I live and I'll check on my answers when I wake up.

MushroomFaerie

You have to greive the loss of the mother you never had and move on, be your own parent.
You can't wait for someone to change, for you to get what you always needed and deserved because I'm sorry but she won't change, they don't. If she ever wants to apologize and make it up you in the future but until then, if ever you have to move on as hard as that is.

MushroomFaerie

@EmptyGirl2001 people don't understand, they just don't. Yeah I wish I had a loving mother but I just didn't, makes your whole life so much harder not being loved as a kid but that's the hand that got dealt to us. I look at children being cuddled by their mothers and it makes me happy and I hope one day I can have my own and give them all the love I never had.
Don't give up on yourself, be there for you like your mother wasn't because you deserve more than what you got. I wish you all the best xx

SteelHands · 61-69, M

One hates someone severely who wants to abandon their child. One despises and hates and wished someone dead who wants to sever a relationship between a father and his children.

None who hate a man can like his children.

And a child that grows up in a home without love suffers the most terrible hunger that a child can experience.

I am truly sorry that your mother doesn't care enough about you to remember and look forward to a dinner appointment. Maybe she grew up in a home without love, or maybe somewhere along the way she lost her meaning in life.