It’s fair to say that I’ve had a pretty crappy few years. I’ve questioned and abandoned my career, only to realise that it’s not just a career. It’s a significant part of who I am. I’ve questioned and abandoned my friends, only to realise that they never asked of me anything that I didn’t offer to give.
Sunday was the birthday of one of my closest family members. She wanted to have a family dinner to celebrate and, as usual, cooking duties fell to me. Roast lamb seasoned with anchovies and cooked in anchovy oil, the joints liberally garnished with streaky bacon rashers. Roast potatoes with fresh lemon juice. Broccoli and carrots. Lashings of mint sauce.
I arrived at their house early so that I could cook the meat slowly. So that I would have plenty of time to make the meal as perfect as I could.
My girlfriend arrived much later. Work duties. Ten of us (including children ranging from one to eleven years old) were sitting round the dinner table enjoying the meal. I was at one end of the table. The birthday girl was at the head of the table. My girlfriend was a few places away from me. The kids take precedent when it comes to seating arrangements.
She looked at me and smiled. The lyrics of this song came to mind.
[i]There was a time I was everything and nothing all in one When you found me I was feeling like a cloud across the sun
I need to tell you How you light up every second of the day But in the moonlight You just shine like a beacon on the bay[/i]
Something About the Way You Looked Tonight - Elton John