The world doesn't know anything but love?

people are self servant selfish prude. Yea I'm virgin 32 year old I always wanted to fight for "Eros" Venus demon of lust, love, and beauty why have you stuck a dagger. God will send this virgin into hell for lusting. Lust in my heart Maybe that is the truth condition of my heart now. I feel empty disobeying God just to fill my carnal pleasure. Is that really me God?