I am not good at keeping my friends.

I had to leave most of my friends when I went to college, I still love them and see them as an important part of my life, but I don't miss them at all. I never text them or call, when we talk they are always the ones who start the conversation. There's this very close friend whom I almost got in a relationship with, we used to be very close, I've never been that close to any other girl. I promised her I'd try to change it about me, but even so really don't feel motivated to do it. I'm strange sometimes. The only person I really feel the need to call regularly is my mother.

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Originalme · 26-30, F

I'm the same way. It's been 5 months since I last saw them and I don't feel like getting in touch with anyone from my past. My phone is pretty much always on flight mode except when I need to call my mother. I met a couple of them on the street and we were planning on going out and spending as much time as we can doing various activities together- but all of that fell into water. I don't think that's weird. It's just that we all go our different ways. That used to bother me before but I'm starting to get used to this idea that every single person in my life is there just temporarily. It makes me more independent and I don't get particularly excited about meeting new people or getting close to anyone. Sometimes I feel like I don't have feelings for other people but I think that just might be a defense mechanism since I'm actually quite emotional. I think I wrote enough xD

Originalme · 26-30, F

Permanently? I'm an idiot. (Temporarily**)

SW-User

It's very nice yo know that I am not alone. I like the way you are going about it. I actually also like the fact that it makes me not dependent of anyone emotionally, I just wish I could show people i care, which is not hard to do when we are physically together, but once we split... You know the whole story lol. I am sure we both have feelings for them, let's say we are just the way we are :)